The end depends upon the beginning.

from lifeissublime.vox.com :

2009-01-15T19:50:36Z

so... im going full speed ahead with the whole Amoure line (i've even come up with what to call it!) I've started putting together surveys and marketing q&a's, patterns and designs that i plan on launching. I am going to post the survey here, i dont know how many people are still out there reading this but if you do happen to stumble upon this entry and have the time, please feel free to fill this out :D.

and without further adieu:

Amoure Questionnaire:

1. What do you like to wear when you go out?

2. What do you feel most comfortable in?

3. What is your favorite color?

4. When you go shopping what calls your attention to a specific item? What makes you want to buy it? And finally, what makes you purchase that item?

5. Do you like sequins? Do you like things that sparkle/glitter?

6. Do you wear gold or silver, or both?

7. Who is your favorite designer?/What is your favorite clothing brand and why?

8. What is your favorite fashion trend?

9. What is one article of clothing in your closet that you could NOT live without?

10. What is one accessory that is a must have?

11. If you had an unlimited budget, what is one item of clothing you would buy?

Choose one:

Floral patterns or sequins?________________________________________________

Polka dots or checkers?___________________________________________________

Black or blue?__________________________________________________________

Messy and complicated or neat and organized?________________________________

Pink or red?____________________________________________________________

Hearts or stars?_________________________________________________________

Pirates or dragons?______________________________________________________

Comfort or style?________________________________________________________

Does it make a difference to you if things are hand made or locally produced? Does it hinder or positively influence your decision to purchase?

How much would you spend on the following:

Grapic Tee____________________________

Graphic Hat___________________________

Graphic Purse or Wallet__________________

Graphic Belt___________________________

Graphic Pants__________________________

Hand painted/decorated or hand made

Tee__________________________________

Hat__________________________________

Purse or Wallet________________________

Belt _________________________________

Pants________________________________

When purchasing a gift for someone how much do you normally spend?

Questions, Comments, Suggestions:

im in love...

2007-06-27T22:33:22Z

with IMVU. if you have it, hit a sista up (lady_amoure). if you don't have it (and you want it) go here :IMVU - The World's Greatest 3D Chat

seriously Addicted. i will now be giving all my money to them instead of lj. sorry lj, don't take it personal.

lildafpunk @ 2007-05-31T19:27:00

2007-05-31T23:33:49Z

ive decided that im tired of being fake.
and have decided to be absolutely truthful about everything.
you want an honest opinion? oh ill give it to you.
you want me to tell you what really happened? oh im spilling my guts.
you want me to tell you the truth? you can't handle the truth! but i'll tell you anyway, just because you asked.
this rule of thumb does not however cover me being ruthlessly mean, it just covers the above aformentioned situations, you ask me, i'm gonna tell you.
because being fake is really getting me nowhere.
and now i just don't care, anymore.

lildafpunk @ 2007-05-22T19:45:00

2007-05-23T00:48:41Z

sometimes im too tired to post.
now im too tired to post because i've been biking!
wait, that sentence def. shouldn't have ended with a !.
biking is kicking my ass.
that and the hills in my neighborhood.
i want chocolate cake.
and milk.

no more going to the dark side...

2007-04-24T02:03:24Z

this is by far THE best show ever. i (heart):

and you should too. haha

lildafpunk @ 2006-11-18T20:41:00

2006-11-19T01:41:03Z

man... so much shit has changed... the new apt is cool... nice and spacious, windows in each room... all utilities included (na'mean?)... and internet... that makes me the happiest. the job is cool, now that certain issues have been dealt with (and perhaps worked out at future dates). im adjusting to all this change. i miss my parents. my mother is getting on my nerves. i dont know how long this'll last. i am happier up here than i was down there. ive planned out a mural. its really fucking cool. ill have pictures soon. i make lots of money. ha. i still cant pay all my bills. give it time. im rambling. we shall see how this unravels...

my lj account has been... temporarily put on hold... less icons, im sad.

Misandrists unite! 2006

2006-09-28T19:33:17Z

Last week I was watching the Dr. Phil show (yes my obsession with the bald headed tyrant and his gorgeous over 50 wife Robin has consumed me YET again) and he had the founder/maintainer of the website www.dontdatehimgirl.com and a man who was suing her because of some slanderous material that was posted anonymously on the website about him.

If only there were a word that meant the opposite of mysoginistic - oh wait, there is : Cock Block.

Not that I'm not supporting the site. If you think you've been wronged and would like the entire world wide web to know, so be it!

What kills me is, these women who claim to be so "powerful" all post anonymously. It's only the dudes that actually get called out. If we're outing people here, ALL parties need to be held responsible. If you dated a married man and didn't find out til months later, it's still your fault because you should've questioned why the man wouldn't give you his home number. Or let you stay at his house. Or take you to any place remotely public where someone he knows might see him. If you dated a man and then found yourself thousands of dollars in debt years later, don't blame him. Blame your dumbass for giving him all that money. Or giving him your pin number. Or for leaving your credit cards around where he could get access to them. Or moving in with him after a few weeks, supporting him because he doesn't work and calling it "love" and "devotion". For instance, on one of these "profiles" a girl (and I quote) says, "I was warned by people about him when I first started dating him but he made me feel special and different so I ignored them." She then went through 2 years of emotional and physical abuse and he cheated on her repeatedly. Even if her intuition was taking a nap, the people around her weren't.

Women aren't stupid, but they sure act like it. I'm with Oprah, if you've got a gut instinct, go with it. If something is constantly nagging at you (see : conscience) and telling you that "somethin' just don' t feel right" go with it (woman's intuition: it's not as fake as some may think). And definitely don't go on a website and let everyone know how truly hurt you were by this dude. Keep your head up and keep on gettin' up. Don't be an emotional, irrational, whiny, pathetic, weak creature and male bash. No matter how many times you tell someone your heartbreaking story, there will always be another (oblivious) girl who thinks she can change him.

Now I cannot (and will not) place all of the blame on these poor, innocent, dense women.

Dudes, don't be such a dick and then we won't have to make websites about you. Yes that's the only thing straight women are fucking now a days, but we mean it literally, NOT figuratively. The guy that was on Dr. Phil who is suing the site owner, was much like the women on the web site. A crying, puking, annoying, whining little baby. He claims that certain things said on the website are untrue or fabricated. He also says that future employers might Google his name and find him on the website and it may harm his chance of landing employment.

Cry me a river.

Like I said before, women are emotional creatures, but we're not stupid. Once a relationship is over, we rehash through all the little insignificant details of that relationship. Most of which are realizations, such as "Damn, he said this so I would do this, He played on my heart strings to get me into bed, He said he was working late but he was really with her, He said this right before this happened and now I know why, He always apologized after he hit me so I wouldn't leave." We receive a certain amount of clarity from the situation. Things that once were muddy are now clear. Now, I'm not saying what this guy says is true or false or what the girl said about him was true or false, but most of the time these realizations are true. Women miscontrue things during a relationship, not after. We make big things out of little things when we're stupid in love, we realize we've been duped when we're scorned.

It's because of the things you do that make women act irrational after a relationship is over (trust me, the time of the month only goes but so far and for so many of us). And if you've wronged someone in a previous relationship and they now choose to post about your infidelity on a website, consider it karma. Really, really shitty karma for what you did. Because as much as you want that ideal job that you've been working your entire life for, all a woman wants is her dignity and a little respect for all that she's been working her entire life for. You don't want to date exclusively? Tell her. You might lose her, or you might find a freak that wants to deal with all that. There are billions of people in this world and SOMEONE will put up with your bullshit.

I suppose my whole point of this is to the women. Use the logical side of your brain as well as your emotional. That's why dudes get ahead. Because they think of the logistics instead of how its making them feel. Call them spineless, heartless and emotionally cut off. But they don't sit around stewing over every detail weeks, months or years after its over. And they certainly don't devote every second of their free time to calling out women on the internet. They get mad and then GET OVER IT. They're nuturing lovers but only when it's timely and convenient (and when they feel like it). If you want to be equal and reap the same benefits, suck it up and grow a thicker skin. Don't just let the fact that you're in love determine every single move you make. You gotta play the game to win, not just to get by. And trust me, as a woman who was once stupid in love (and cheated on and hit several times), even though I too saw the warning signs MULTIPLE times, I know what I'm talking about. They do these things to us because we let them.

I respect the fact that the website has a lot of links for women to educate themselves and to heed the signs instead of overlooking them. They also have links to different women's charities; the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence (www.NCADV.org), the Global Fund for Women, and a link to a breast cancer charity and support group. However, while this website is some sort of stretch in the right direction, it's really childish to say that little Bobby hurt your feelings so you're gonna bash him and tell the whole school about how he done you wrong. Because as Dr. Phil says, "The real revenge is living well" (and forgetting about the schmuck). (But even better if you can rub it in his face).

lildafpunk @ 2006-08-15T19:56:00

2006-08-15T23:58:57Z

im still trying to decide what the hell im going to do with my lj. i would NEVER delete it but maybe i should just shut it down? and i guess not get a paid account when it comes time for me to pay again? am i really THAT ready to sever ties from my loved lj? really? haha. vox doesnt even have communities yet but i update that mug like nothing else. and i actually talk about more interesting things on there. dunno. what to do, what to do.

ive recieved 4 more invites. if anyone wants to try vox. anyone, anyone? and my friend sunshine (on vox) told me i could use some of hers, if i wanted.

lildafpunk @ 2006-08-01T16:45:00

2006-08-01T20:48:11Z

i need a job. and i need to move out. and i say the same thing to myself every afternoon/evening but when the morning comes and i wake up all i wanna do is sleep. or watch tv. or sit around and get on the internet. and i dunno what i can do to change this. i feel like less of a person because of it. im just so confused. what kind of job can i get to get the hell out of here?

Vox me baby!

2006-07-19T17:13:44Z

im also a traitor. but i couldnt help it. they just lured me in with all the talk about it and then i couldnt join when i wanted to but now they've sent me an invitation and i joined vox. haha. but its nothing like live journal. i cant even put html in my profile. its all boring though, its about school and event coordination and the what not. but if you wanna go go here.

and if anyone wants an invitation... i gots 2 left.

lildafpunk @ 2006-07-19T01:07:00

2006-07-19T05:09:01Z

im back from my vacation!! lemme tell you... well, lets just say i was not good, at all. and its a good thing i came back haha. but im back and in action and... looking for a job. haha.

hope everyones ok, thanks for bearing with me. :D

lildafpunk @ 2006-06-28T15:59:00

2006-06-28T20:01:54Z

people are so surprising sometimes... it gives me hope..

you really cant judge books by their covers, or make the first impression your last.

damn.

lildafpunk @ 2006-06-25T19:29:00

2006-06-25T23:30:50Z

im so excited about my trip ive already started packing :D

does anyone else have any plans this summer?

and i must apologize, its summer/hot and ive been out alot and i really havent been keeping up with lj as much as i should. thank you friends for sticking in there with me.

much love!

lildafpunk @ 2006-06-15T11:53:00

2006-06-15T15:53:10Z

i got canned. it feels so strange to be free.

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-23T21:03:00

2006-05-24T01:10:11Z

and the winner is....coldwriter!!! congratulations... ill be contacting you in a few... and of course, congratulations TAYLOR!!! im so glad he won :D

your final two

alas, this is our last week together... tomorrow after the winner is announced i will announce the winner of my american idol giveaway. ill also contact that person so they can choose their prize. it has been absolutely wonderful to go through discussions and pick apart contestants with you all. see you next season!

View Poll: This is IT

neighbourhood watch

2006-05-21T00:20:41Z

neighbour #2. lives across the street from me. married, one kid, one on the way. a few nites ago around 10 pm whilst i was out side smoking a cigarette he let his garage door up about half way and had the light on. i could not make out a clear view of exactly what he was doing, but i could see him walking back and forth, back and forth, in and out of the house, coughing repeatedly. this went on for i know a good 10 minutes. and then wifey came home and the garage door was abruptly shut. i wanna know what the hell is going on around here.

neighbour #1 was yet again dressing some sort of mannequin. but i definitely dont think its for wearing, cos there was an awful lot of bright pink. like a matching scarf and sweater set. haha.

exhausted. join my community! mii_opia

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-18T22:30:00

2006-05-19T02:30:25Z

so ive started my new community... its for the icon and colour bar making illiterates and the saavy. i need designers!! esp. those who know how to make layouts. cos thats not necessarily my area of expertise. i also need the amateurs looking to learn or looking for new images. any and all are free to join and take as they please.

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-16T21:04:00

2006-05-17T01:13:34Z

i know alot of you were shocked last week at the dismissal of chris. i think out of all the idols i was the most surprised at his departure. we all thought he would make it. in fact, only FIVE people said that he would get voted off last week, and i think some of you were just saying it cos you didnt particularly like him. almost everyone supported him. HE was even shocked when he heard that he was going home. my question is, was he a little too cocky? did all the hype of this underpriviledged country bumpkin who was supporting his wife's children (that weren't his) go straight to his head? thoughts?

now onto the voting.

View Poll: THE top 3!!

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-10T21:35:00

2006-05-11T01:39:13Z

i went shopping today. and spent wayyyy too much money. shoes clothes sunglasses including but not limited to these items from the gap :

all for like 5 bucks. they're having an incredible sale. run to a gap near you. hah. new icons and headbars and etc. etc. etc. coming soon. have a nice day :)

p.s. also taking more requests. or ideas. or anything.
(and for those of you who commented last time and i still havent presented anything, im working on them.)

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-09T22:18:00

2006-05-10T02:18:53Z

no glamour and glitz tonite, i know i know, im really slacking. and i didnt get around to naming all the correct voters cos there were SO many of you. i might stop doing it all together just so we can build up the suspense for the last couple of weeks. there are... two people tied for first? keep voting!

i would just like to say that just because paris is gone now doesnt mean that she still cant be my idol. haha.

View Poll: American Idol Top 4!!

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-07T10:17:00

2006-05-07T14:21:09Z

is it true that we're supposed to boycott gas on july 4th? cos im all for it! i mean, i honestly dont spend that much on gas mostly cos my jobs are 5 minutes away and i dont go anywhere else besides there, but i think if gas wasnt so expensive i probly would go other places. plus itd be nice to see the american people actually do something about the crap thats happening to us. although im not really sure if this would help us or hurt us, considering the gas people would most likely raise the prices to make up for the day(s) they lost. has anyone else heard about this?

lildafpunk @ 2006-05-02T12:36:00

2006-05-02T16:39:43Z

im gonna miss tonites & tomorrow nites show :( damn jobs. but hopefully it wont be that exciting (yeah right! haha) anywho. here's this week's poll, and congratulations to (sorry if i get anyones name wrong): coldwriter, radiant, mt_brain, annabelevil, lolzerz, imprincessapril, mellers13, jared_is_awesum, katshakespeare, silverfox1027, antisocialxgrl, citybound, snapsh0t, itsyourlove19, maryam, mlmluvspem, strawbrysmoothi, _foodle_, _chels_0017, lissie_pissie, aliminx, songshesings, vachement1126, persephonec, dayedreams, hushed_hun, kuhpuh, midorisour, inkylovesyou, supremegoddess, imimaginery, alipie053, sadida_7, danid0tcom, rachelkathryn, kat4ever73, betterthanmindy, lirannutian, illstarred, cindylou07, dolface546, yasa_kistune, lauriel84, fireblanket, kissmytan, silverteachick.

i think theres either 5 people tied or only one person at the top. i cant quite remember (and dont feel like looking at the chart right now.) either way theres definitely gonna be a winner so keep voting!

one more thing... if someone could either email me or leave a comment as to whom gets voted off on wednesday id appreciate it. i wanna know before i get home and have to find out. haha.

here goes nothin...

i got lazy, next week ill have new screen shots (hopefully)

View Poll: American Idol Top 5!!!!

lildafpunk @ 2006-04-25T21:07:00

2006-04-26T01:09:13Z

you guys really put me to work last week! very good predictions made by alot of people. im apologizing in advance if i forgot anyone/spelled anyone's name wrong. so here goes:

congratulations to : danid0tcom, jennybenz, jackburden, sopay, julziscool_z, dianawnt8, p1nkm0onl1ght23, kellertherapy, spatulistic, illcoveryou_x, __songcry, annabelevil, monkeybuttz, thejessicka, mistressxenobia, memoriesofus, lizziest, charmeddancer06, glishara, karimonica, ladiosa, _pyromatic, frecklejuice, laura7715, realspecialgirl, phuck, katshakespeare, jared_is_awesum, colorsblend, runxway, clockinnow, twomojitos, doubleduchess, pink_lynz, seabirds, ___tonightt, airairo, zemjay, fadedwriter, thundercat_roar, wahkie, births, buriedxa_lie, coldwriter, future_star20, shellies, degrassi_punka, louis_vuitton8, hawaiianham, unamanda, lanupiniki, daisygirl3, awwyea, jojodancer77, illstarred, tiny_taurus, let_u_go, celestiayo, deeplyunhip, sexytwist, fansonsince1997, scoobiedoggie, soda_staygold_9, tigerlixalot, pooh4, friskiecat79, littlestarletta, & bambam24.

there are 5 people tied for first place!! keep at it, we're almost to the end! now on to the fun stuff:

(screen shots from last week's show)

View Poll: The TOP 6!!!

lildafpunk @ 2006-04-23T03:00:00

2006-04-23T03:02:08Z

I was just about to post about how great my phone's been but its ackin funny on me now. Earlier I was checking friends pages while watching rainy Saturday movies. Now I'm updating while watching Girlfriends, I'm in heaven. The only thing I hate is the proper typing. It takes away from my style. And I can't really search for pictures to post or can I? Maybe I can save them and then post them through email! This is just like having a laptop but better. Nerd nerd nerd.

goodnite<\b>

lildafpunk @ 2006-04-22T02:23:00

2006-04-22T02:24:17Z

ahh what a dork i am. i got my phone today and ive been stuck like glue. i can tell alot of comments from now on will be answered via that phone haha. im in love already. i was flirting on the phone with the guy that set it up hard core like it was my job or something. in a few minutes im gonna email his supervisor telling him what a good job he did haha. in any who, im back! for good this time, the youngins are gone and i have the computer all to myself now.

i wonder how my friends page looks on my phone... i might have to revamp that.